I'm sorry

I'm so sorry I haven't been online. My kindle broke completely and now the only way I can get on is if Mom let's me use the computer. Even when I was able to use the computer I played games instead of coming on and seeing you guys. And I feel terrible and guilty and selfish for doing so.

I especially want to apologize to Abey...I hardly ever thought of you but struggled and tolerated glares and lectures from my mother so that I could call onii-chan. And...my heart ached so much for him but...I never ached for you. I'm confused by my feelings but I refuse to let you go. I love you Abey. I must love you. If I don't then my brain is even more fucked up then I thought. I may not have thought of you but I do love you.

I'm sorry to all of you but I assure you, if you thought I wasn't on because of something I did, I'm fine. Depressed and suffering from the lack of communication but I'm...ok.

I'm sorry and I love all of y'all. Some of you as friends, some more than that.