Dear everyone...

Dear everyone,

Just saying hi and telling everyone how I'm doing right now as well as delivering a message to a couple people. I hope everyone's doing ok. I miss MOST of y'all very much!

I, unfortunately, am not doing very well. Since my kindle broke I have become extremely depressed, suicidally so. I think about suicide a lot and am very often searching for ways to get out of this hell of a town. I actually tried to commit suicide recently but the way I attempted it was not very logical and would never have worked. A couple of days ago I cut myself again, though, as usual, I didn't draw blood. I'm still hanging on and clinging to life but just barely. I don't know how much longer I can go on. It's harder and harder to move and go through each day. I've stopped eating lunch lately just because I don't want to; I feel hungry but I don't feel like eating. I don't want to. Obviously, this isn't really good for me cause of how small I already am and cause of the fact that I'm anemic and a couple other reasons. But I really honestly don't care.

I'll try to hang on as long as I can but I don't know how much longer I can do this...

I was going to post this later when I was done making my video for you but I wanna tell you now.

I was gunna right up a whole bunch of stuff but thats really a waste of time cause it would've all addded up to one thing.

I love you Abey and that'll never change. I am NOT replacing you with onii-chan. I love both of you more than the world and I would never replace either of you. I can't live without either of you guys. Please don't worry and please don't be depressed. I miss you soooo much!! I love you and I hope to see you very soon!!