Ember's story

Upon the request from Ember, her's her story for everyone to read it they wish to do so:


[23:27:26 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : damn phone....
[23:28:00 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : alright, rantand chat away.
[23:29:17 30/03/12] @ Ember : i just basically want to tell the story of my life, like when all this shit started. i kinda dont want to though cause i dont want to bore you
[23:29:55 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : lol, Ember, ive sat through opera's, you wont bore me.
[23:30:45 30/03/12] @ Ember : well first theres a piece that im not sure where it fits, when it happened
[23:31:59 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : im listening.
[23:32:11 30/03/12] @ Ember : it was my first online boyfriend. and maybe my first real boyfriend, i dont know. im not even sure if it was a real relationship
[23:33:21 30/03/12] @ Ember : it was when i had free reign on the computer and allowed to do what i wanted to online
[23:34:13 30/03/12] @ Ember : i chatted with random people through IMVU
[23:35:08 30/03/12] @ Ember : and yea it was fun and i met this guy. i cant even remember much about it.
[23:36:52 30/03/12] @ Ember : when i try to all i see are a couple images, blurry ones at that. my avatar was like a corpse and so was the boy. we kissed and did every nasty thing we could without having the adult permission stuff to have sex
[23:37:05 30/03/12] @ Ember : *try to remember
[23:37:50 30/03/12] @ Ember : im not even sure how it stopped or ended. as i said when i try to remember all i get is blurry images
[23:38:22 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : ive nevr used that.
[23:39:01 30/03/12] @ Ember : now onto the stuff that actually has a chronological order
[23:39:44 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : mmmhmm
[23:40:29 30/03/12] * Ember grunts and closes her eyes, trying hard to remmber more than just pictures
[23:41:00 30/03/12] @ Ember : oh hi Kanji
[23:41:03 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : just so u know im lagging so these may seem out of place
[23:41:12 30/03/12] Kanji : Howdy
[23:41:14 30/03/12] @ Ember : your free to sit in and listen
[23:42:24 30/03/12] * Ember shrugs "i feel like telling everything and just being free of all the hidden stuff and getting this wieght off my shoulders"
[23:42:37 30/03/12] @ Ember : ok bro
[23:43:02 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : hey Kanji
[23:43:23 30/03/12] Kanji : (you're)
[23:43:40 30/03/12] @ Ember : oh sorry!
[23:45:18 30/03/12] @ Ember : I'm not sure how old i was but I was playing on the computer, still had free reign, and discovered a game called FlyFF- Fly For Fun
[23:46:04 30/03/12] Kanji : I remember that game
[23:46:14 30/03/12] Kanji : ... I played it for a solid 5 minutes
[23:46:34 30/03/12] @ Ember : I gained a, this is the best word to describe it, "posse"
[23:47:20 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : i think i remember this.
[23:48:12 30/03/12] @ Ember : oh did i tell you? well i'll skip that unless Kanji wants to hear
[23:48:42 30/03/12] Kanji : I'm indifferenyt
[23:48:46 30/03/12] Kanji : indifferent*
[23:49:59 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : yeah, i remeber this part. when your mom found you and your new BF and you had your friend tell her.
[23:51:12 30/03/12] @ Ember : I cant connect the real life and online events. Can't connect the time lines. But this is basically all the online things that happened until I discovered RPGH
[23:53:14 30/03/12] @ Ember : All I can connect is that this stuff on FlyFF happened the summer with my cousin. You know what I mean Kuya
[23:54:07 30/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : yeah, i know what you mean.
[23:54:18 30/03/12] Kanji : .
[23:54:39 30/03/12] @ Ember : Now the real life events I can remember much better.
[23:54:48 30/03/12] @ Ember : Mostly ha.
[23:55:36 30/03/12] @ Ember : I believe it was fourth and fifth grade when I started fucking up my reputation at school
[23:57:11 30/03/12] @ Ember : Now at the time, it was all fun and games. Just stuff we played at recess.
[23:59:09 30/03/12] @ Ember : I had friends, I'd play with them at recess but what I did a lot was chase kids around the playground.
[00:00:08 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[00:00:35 31/03/12] @ Ember : Not just chase either. I barked at them like a dog when I did. I would stand on the highest point of the playground equitment and howl like a wolf.
[00:02:57 31/03/12] @ Ember : And, this I'm embaressed to tell, I made wierd noises. What I'm embaressed of is the way I did it.
[00:05:10 31/03/12] @ Ember : I, er, opened my mouth wide and flapped and wiggled my toungue around and it made like an undulating sound. I'm pretty sure the guys saw something sexual in that, although I didn't realize it at the time.
[00:05:36 31/03/12] @ Ember : I do know >///////<
[00:05:48 31/03/12] @ Ember : *now
[00:06:58 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : mmhmm
[00:07:23 31/03/12] @ Ember : Sure Kanji will get a kick out of that heh.
[00:08:06 31/03/12] @ Ember : I was very naive and stupid at the time.
[00:09:02 31/03/12] @ Ember : When I got into high school the stuff I did bit me in the ass.
[00:11:10 31/03/12] @ Ember : People would bark and growl at me. And, stupid me, I barked and growled back. I also made like quacking noises when got pissed.
[00:13:03 31/03/12] @ Ember : Boys would go up to me and say "so and so likes you and wants to go out with you." And I'd say yes, just because I was stunned and happy that a boy would ask me out.
[00:14:08 31/03/12] @ Ember : Then as I smile shyly at the boy, they say. "He's breaking up with you." or "It's over."
[00:14:24 31/03/12] @ Ember : And I fell for this over and over
[00:14:37 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : Jack asses
[00:16:01 31/03/12] @ Ember : Then I actually did get asked out. For real. His name was Daniel Kawalsky and he was my first real boyfriend
[00:16:29 31/03/12] * Ember sighs happily and swoons and chuckles as she remembers him
[00:16:42 31/03/12] @ Ember : He was such a goof
[00:17:13 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : hey Abel
[00:17:42 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Hey Ember and Kota bro
[00:17:49 31/03/12] @ Ember : He was tall though, much taller than me. And he had a pimply face. But I ignored it because I was happy to be in a relationship
[00:17:56 31/03/12] @ Ember : hi Abe
[00:18:29 31/03/12] @ Ember : Come take a seat have some popcorn and listen to me rant about my life
[00:18:34 31/03/12] Abel XIV : How are ya' doin'?, What were ya' talkibg about ?
[00:18:50 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Oh!, I love rants!
[00:19:21 31/03/12] * Abel XIV gets his popcorn, a coke and sits besides Kota
[00:19:42 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Is it a happy rant :3?
[00:20:01 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : Its her life Abel. The one she is always unhappy about
[00:20:09 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : She's trusting us with her history
[00:20:22 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I see...
[00:20:34 31/03/12] @ Ember : God he was such a sweetheart. He was a perv but what guy at that age isn't? I was kinda awkward and uncomfortable with it but I didn't really care.
[00:20:35 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Well, I shall take it seriously
[00:21:02 31/03/12] @ Ember : some of it is serious and unhappy some isnt
[00:22:26 31/03/12] @ Ember : I was really clingy. I sat with him at lunch, followed him around in the hall, I even once switched classes to be in one with him.
[00:24:07 31/03/12] @ Ember : He became friends with my cousin so I'd see him after school every day when my Mom visits my Aunt. A couple embaressing moments happened during those visits, heh.
[00:24:10 31/03/12] Abel XIV : (may I say that that's just adorable?, my heart would have melt if you had switched classes to be with me ^^~)
[00:25:19 31/03/12] @ Ember : Well I don't think he liked it. He asked me to eat with my friends sometimes so he could hang out with his friends alone.
[00:25:40 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : How selfish
[00:25:43 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Awwww... That sucks...
[00:26:04 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I would have never asoed you to do such a thing
[00:26:16 31/03/12] @ Ember : The embaressing moments, I may have accidently showed him my breasts, heh.
[00:26:57 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Asked*
[00:27:13 31/03/12] @ Ember : Yeah well that's what caused me to believe that guys don't like clingy girls.
[00:27:18 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Hi Kanji
[00:27:28 31/03/12] Kanji : howdy
[00:27:31 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : wb Kanji
[00:27:44 31/03/12] Kanji : thanks dude
[00:28:11 31/03/12] @ Ember : Once, I was playing with my dog and rolling around on the floor and of course my shirt rides up and well I refused to wear a bra.
[00:28:13 31/03/12] @ Ember : wb
[00:28:14 31/03/12] * Abel XIV does like clingy girls
[00:28:26 31/03/12] Kanji : ty
[00:28:45 31/03/12] Abel XIV : That's lolworthy XD
[00:29:54 31/03/12] @ Ember : The other time, I was wearing a tube top and a short skort and I took the skirt part and folded it up so it was under my shirt.
[00:31:49 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[00:31:49 31/03/12] @ Ember : I lifted up my shirt to show him that and then pulled down the skirt part and I'm pretty sure he say my breasts cause he said "Whoa!" in that goofy voice of his
[00:32:22 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Lol, lucky guy XD
[00:32:40 31/03/12] @ Ember : Oh, that reminds me.
[00:34:38 31/03/12] Abel XIV : .
[00:34:43 31/03/12] @ Ember : I once did a summersalt in summer camp and I was still refusing a bra at that point. My shirt lifted up and a guy saw my breasts and said "Ew, I don't wanna see that again!"
[00:35:23 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy XD
[00:35:26 31/03/12] Kanji : .
[00:35:42 31/03/12] * Kotaro Kuya shakes head
[00:36:21 31/03/12] Abel XIV : (what's up Kota?)
[00:36:54 31/03/12] @ Ember : I was mortified and that combined with the fact that the girls in gym class were urging me to wear a bra, I wore a bra from then on
[00:37:15 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : nuthin abel
[00:38:53 31/03/12] Abel XIV : (now that I remember... I was wondering... They say that girl's breasts hurt while they are still developing, is that true?)
[00:39:05 31/03/12] @ Ember : I was embaressed again in gym class when the gym teacher told me kids were complaining because I didn't wear deoderant. I didn't know I needed to wear it.
[00:39:24 31/03/12] @ Ember : Yea my chest hurt a little
[00:40:07 31/03/12] Abel XIV : (I see... Must suck a lot...)
[00:40:11 31/03/12] @ Ember : That reminds me of yet another embaressing moment when my breasts were just growing.
[00:42:23 31/03/12] @ Ember : I had felt my chest and like felt lumps and didn't realize it was just my breasts growing so I asked a girl I sat next to in class. I remember comparin it to blood clots, though I had never had one. I was laughed at and god was I embaressed.
[00:44:32 31/03/12] @ Ember : Aaanyway, Daniel and me were kinda an off and on relationship. I kept trying to have him come up and visit my Gram but things never worked out.
[00:44:40 31/03/12] @ Ember : brb dinner
[00:45:14 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Ok, see ya later ^^~!
[00:45:38 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I'm away to get somethin'
[00:48:10 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[00:48:20 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Back~
[00:48:35 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Hey Kota
[00:48:55 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Why's Ember telling us all of this?
[00:51:03 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : she was just telling me. she wanted to let me know why she is the way she is. kanji and yoi arrived and she goes with it.
[00:51:41 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I see... Thanks for the info
[00:55:00 31/03/12] Abel XIV : .
[00:57:30 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[00:57:33 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[00:57:37 31/03/12] Abel XIV : .
[00:59:14 31/03/12] * Abel XIV reads the srchives
[00:59:20 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Archives*
[01:00:08 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Well, in fact I have already read them all
[01:00:54 31/03/12] Abel XIV : God, none of this would have happened at this side of the ocean
[01:01:26 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : yeah, shes been through a lot.
[01:02:10 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Yeah
[01:03:00 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Perhaps, people here in Spain aren't as bad as I thought... Or perhaps, they are only honest about how bad they are
[01:04:06 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : i hate jack asses like that.
[01:04:15 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I had never heard about boys laughing at a girl before...
[01:04:59 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : America is a fucked up place.
[01:05:11 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Here, we are only cruel with people of our same sex, we are sexist bastards like that XD
[01:05:37 31/03/12] Abel XIV : The rest of the wprld is pretty fucked up too
[01:05:55 31/03/12] Abel XIV : World*
[01:05:59 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : yeah, i know it is.
[01:07:02 31/03/12] Abel XIV : But at least, we can do something to change it
[01:07:17 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : yeah
[01:08:05 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : freaking addicted o Mass Effect 3
[01:08:19 31/03/12] Abel XIV : To be honest, I think that it's enough with not being the same than the rest of the world
[01:08:30 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Haven't played it
[01:09:01 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : its insane.
[01:09:34 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I got addicted to Deus Ex, but O got stuck on the first boss ú.ù...
[01:09:58 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : lol, love that game.
[01:10:18 31/03/12] Abel XIV : What is quite strange, since I consider myself to be a quite skilled gamer
[01:10:28 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Have you beated it?
[01:10:56 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : ueah, but i aint spoiling nuthing. :3
[01:12:01 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Can you tell me how to beat the first boss?
[01:12:28 31/03/12] Abel XIV : You know, the guy with a machine gun on his arm
[01:12:35 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : i would, but that would ruin the fun of playing yourself
[01:13:06 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : i dont like to help others with games honestly unless im playing with them.
[01:13:06 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Awww... Come on bro D:!
[01:13:48 31/03/12] Abel XIV : You know what game I would like to play wit you?
[01:13:57 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Monster Hunter
[01:14:09 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : dude, its easy. youll get it. and the reason i cant is because im playing a game right now and dying because im talking. XD
[01:14:26 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : i used to play it. when i had it
[01:14:59 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Lol, I'm watching "The Godfather" right now XD
[01:15:06 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Which one?
[01:15:43 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : which monster hunter? All. my cousin gave them all to me and i sold them for double on ebay last month
[01:16:04 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I see
[01:16:19 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I have both tri and unite
[01:16:32 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : he is a massive gamer. lives alone with all the systems collected
[01:17:04 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Beated tri and I'm HR9 in Unite
[01:17:16 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Whoah
[01:17:34 31/03/12] Abel XIV : That's too much >.>
[01:18:00 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : freaking geth....
[01:18:09 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : his family is part in a video compant. can hardly blame him
[01:18:57 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I see...
[01:19:04 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I have a similar cousin
[01:20:08 31/03/12] Abel XIV : But he is a different case
[01:20:36 31/03/12] Abel XIV : He can be blamed for his gaming problem
[01:21:40 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Plus, he is a very intelligent guy, and he is wasting all of his talent with gaming
[01:22:10 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : damn. doesnt sound intelligent. XD
[01:23:38 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Yep, intelligents guys like my cousin and I tend to do stupidities like that kind of things
[01:23:53 31/03/12] @ Ember : sorry that took so long
[01:24:00 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : wb sis
[01:24:12 31/03/12] * Ember reads back
[01:24:13 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Thankfully, mine's don't are like his
[01:24:15 31/03/12] @ Ember : ty
[01:24:30 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Wb Ember !
[01:25:08 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Crap, the Godfather is about to end
[01:25:16 31/03/12] Abel XIV : What means that I'm
[01:25:33 31/03/12] Abel XIV : About to have to leave...
[01:25:47 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : crap. that sucks.
[01:25:50 31/03/12] @ Ember : aw bye Abe
[01:25:54 31/03/12] @ Ember : and ty
[01:26:13 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Well, I can still be online for a few
[01:26:17 31/03/12] Abel XIV : minutes
[01:28:37 31/03/12] @ Ember : ok
[01:28:51 31/03/12] Abel XIV : Crap, now it's over for good
[01:28:54 31/03/12] @ Ember : want me to continue?
[01:29:19 31/03/12] @ Ember : aw dont leave Abe
[01:29:22 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : if your comfortable.
[01:29:37 31/03/12] * Ember clings to Abes leg
[01:29:41 31/03/12] Abel XIV : I would like to hear the rest, but I'm forced to leave ú.ù...
[01:30:44 31/03/12] * Abel XIV hugs Ember, "Sorry dear, but I have no other option"
[01:31:10 31/03/12] * Ember clings to her brother instead
[01:31:21 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : sis, i wont be able to be on GP much longer. its bugging my phone
[01:31:34 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : but i can stay a while.
[01:31:35 31/03/12] @ Ember : ok
[01:31:50 31/03/12] @ Ember : im almost done i think
[01:33:46 31/03/12] @ Ember : Anyway as I said, Dan coming up to my Gram's house kept not working out and I remember asking him, "Do you believe in god?" he answered yes and I said that maybe he was stopping us from going
[01:35:46 31/03/12] @ Ember : He accidently started a rumor about me, shaved off his eyebrows on a whim then sharpied them back on in various colors, gave me his big blue sweatshirt. He was such a goof but he was so sweet
[01:36:39 31/03/12] @ Ember : The rumor was that we had had sex but actually he had only had a dream that we did and told his friend about it
[01:37:50 31/03/12] @ Ember : My Dad shredded and threw away the sweatshirt because I wore it too much but I still have a bit of fabric from it :3
[01:38:50 31/03/12] @ Ember : Unfortunately he moved away one year and we seperated and I haven't seen him since.
[01:40:26 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[01:42:23 31/03/12] @ Ember : I had one other boyfriend from my school named Cory. Apparently, according to my cousin and you can see why that would make me doubt it, he just wanted "to get in my pants", as he phrased it.
[01:42:55 31/03/12] @ Ember : But he was very sweet.
[01:43:23 31/03/12] @ Ember : He gave me lilacs one day and I still have a few of the dried flowers
[01:45:24 31/03/12] @ Ember : Once, I was in the gym before school and hanging around him, some boy insulted me and he glared at him and said something, I can't remember what but it made the guy back off.
[01:46:07 31/03/12] @ Ember : And then there was that afternoon adventure...
[01:46:30 31/03/12] * Ember smiles and shakes her head with a chuckle
[01:50:37 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[01:50:41 31/03/12] @ Ember : I went home with him on his bus so he could drop off his stuff then we walked to the library together. And I wasn't supposed to be dating him so we had to sneak around. He carried my bag for me and when we crossed the Trussle (or however you spell it) I was terrified but he helped me across. Then, while we were at the library, Mom found us and I was in big trouble
[01:51:06 31/03/12] @ Ember : He was the one who broke up with me though
[01:51:52 31/03/12] @ Ember : I had a cringe-worthy moment with him.
[01:55:01 31/03/12] @ Ember : The art room was being moved so all the artwork that hadn't been collected over the years was being given away. I found a painting with the name Corey on it and showed it to him in front of his friends
[01:55:09 31/03/12] @ Ember : brb
[01:55:20 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : k
[02:03:22 31/03/12] @ Ember : back
[02:04:01 31/03/12] @ Ember : Yeaaa I realized pretty soon after I did that that it was really stupid
[02:04:51 31/03/12] @ Ember : I'm pretty sure that's it...
[02:05:14 31/03/12] @ Ember : Oh yeah
[02:05:22 31/03/12] @ Ember : One last thing
[02:05:53 31/03/12] @ Ember : I did something reeeally stupid one day at lunch.
[02:09:44 31/03/12] @ Ember : These kids had a bag that a cookie had came in. These cookies were fucking amazing by the way. And there was chocolate on the inside of the bag. They told me to sit and roll over and then, after I did it, they gave me the bag.
[02:09:59 31/03/12] @ Ember : NOW that's it.
[02:10:02 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : .
[02:11:11 31/03/12] @ Ember : im insulted like that right now though, called a dog and all that shit
[02:11:18 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : Youve had a tough life
[02:11:45 31/03/12] @ Ember : yea but a lot was caused by my own stupidity
[02:12:00 31/03/12] * Kotaro Kuya hugs Ember tightly. "thank you for sharing this with me.
[02:13:51 31/03/12] * Ember smiles and hugs him back "your welcome. i just wanted to share my story with the world. i dont even want to clear. i want to copy and paste this into a thread asap so everyone can read."
[02:14:25 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : if thats what you want sis. i can tell youve had it hard.
[02:14:34 31/03/12] * Ember lets go of him and spins around with her arms out "i feel so free now!"
[02:15:21 31/03/12] * Kotaro Kuya smiles.
[02:17:14 31/03/12] @ Ember : i do! ive told my story to the world, ive shared my pain, i feel like a huge wieght has been lifted off my shoulders!
[02:17:55 31/03/12] * Kotaro Kuya nods. "I know it feels good. To let it all out."
[02:19:01 31/03/12] @ Ember : can you copy and paste on your phone?
[02:19:53 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : no. ive tried and no luck
[02:20:08 31/03/12] @ Ember : ok its ok
[02:20:37 31/03/12] @ Ember : lets go to messenger so it doesnt start disappearing from the archives
[02:20:51 31/03/12] Kotaro Kuya : ok
[02:21:29 31/03/12] * Ember hugs him and walks out with a happy sigh
[02:21:53 31/03/12] * Kotaro Kuya walks out as well